I am in the middle of a big dseiicon right now. There's definitely no easy way to know which choice is the right one. Right after college I found a wonderful teaching job and I love it. I have security, a supportive staff and administration, and even a position working with a large university as a liaison. It's everything I wanted in college. I feel so blessed but I also feel scared because I got so lucky the first time around that I don't know if that look can carry and I kind of need it to. See, the man I love and plan to marry is on the other side of the country in my home state (I moved for college) and we desperately want to start our lives together, want to start planning our wedding, and basically just want to be together (long distances suck!). But the area he is in doesn't have many available teaching positions. In fact, odds are high that once I move out there it may be a good while before I land ANY job, let alone one as amazing as my current one. Part of me feels like I should wait here until I find a good job out west but that means at best another year, maybe more, away from my boyfriend. He is employed with a great company in Washington so moving isn't really an option for him either, especially since ultimately, that's where we want to end up. I feel so torn between my career which brings me such joy and my boyfriend with whom I am deeply in love. We've been together for nearly ten years so it's not a question of some flighty romance. There's positives and negatives to both so it's just a matter of figuring out which opportunity to take and when. |
